Trust Falls with the Lord

Have you ever gone to do a trust fall with someone and freak out so you don’t fall? Full transparency, that is what I feel like I do with God, a lot. As I’m typing, I’m doing it now. With that being said, I want to make this clear that this blog (and every other one that I write) is not just for you, but I am speaking to myself as well and I will continue to do so as I learn and grow. 

Now take a minute to look at this word trust. Just the word, nothing else. Did you do it? Great! Now think about what you think the word trust means.And then think of someone that you wholeheartedly trust? What makes you trust them so deeply? Would you do a trust fall with them? Now think of your relationship with the Lord. Do you trust Him? Do you do trust falls with Him? 

That was a lot of questions, but I promise I’m getting somewhere with it. 

Trust is a small word with a big meaning. Trust as a noun is “a firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.” As a verb, it is “to rely on the truthfulness or accuracy of; to place confidence.” As I’ve already stated, trust is a small word with a big meaning. It sounds like it would be easy, but it really isn’t, is it? 

Looking back at my life I see many, and I mean MANY moments where I struggled to trust the Lord. I’ve been through it all with the Lord. I’d struggle (still do) with trusting Him with relationships, jobs, family, sickness, etc. I’d second guess if He were really there and had a plan for me. I would share my dreams, hopes, and desires with Him and I would show my ugliest side. I’d yell, kick, scream, and cry A LOT. It’s not pretty haha. But that is what happens. I would love to be able to say that I trust the Lord and that it’s easy to do. But the reality is, it’s not easy. It is ugly, hard, and sometimes even painful. 

One of the biggest memories for me of having to trust the Lord is in one of my relationships. I swore I would last with this guy. It definitely wasn’t the healthiest relationship but I thought I had made it. I wanted to make it with him. But after many things, I had to take a long look at where I was at. I was not as close to the Lord as I should have been. I saw where I was and I didn’t like it. But I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to go through the hardship of having to break things off. Well, one thing led to another and we did end up breaking up and it ruined me in a beautiful way. My trust was thrown into the Lord. I felt the Lord’s love like never before. And that is when the Lord gave me this verse. Proverbs 3:5-6 says this, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways know Him, and he will make your paths straight.” 

Now, I had heard this verse many times before. But never until that time in my life did it truly come to have a real, intimate meaning to me. I was in such a bad place, but the Lord caught me as I was falling. I didn’t know that in that moment, I was doing a trust fall with the Lord. At that moment, I knew what it was like to be caught by the hands of a loving father. 

This verse has now become my life verse. It is the verse I go to every single chance I can. It is written on my heart and I know it by memory. It is the verse that has gotten me through more than just a bad breakup, but through every hardship I have had to go through. How can a verse do so much? Because the Lord uses it to remind me of Him. This verse is known by heart so that it can remind me that without Him, I have nothing. That I can only get through my life by trusting the one who created my life. It doesn’t matter what decision I am making. What matters is that everything within me knows the Lord, because then He will make my paths straight. If I go down the wrong path, He will lead me right back. If I make the wrong decision, He will guide me through it. 

The Lord always catches. If you fall, He’s got you. If you leap, He’s got you. If you stumble, He’s got you. 

The Lord is a good God. Trusting isn’t easy. It is a choice to trust the Lord every day, hour, minute, and second. The last year of my life has had to be nothing but trusting the Lord. And it will continue to be that way not only for me, but for you too. 

So here’s my question for you. Are you trusting the Lord? Are you willing to do trust fall after trust fall with Him? Take a few minutes and really think about this and pray on it. Ask the Lord what it would look like for you to trust Him. Ask Him what areas you need to let go of in order to trust. It can be so easy to hold on and not let go, but that wouldn’t be trusting, would it? 

The Lord is saying right now to trust him. Let go of the hurt and the pain. Let go of the worries that you have and trust him. Fall into his arms.

I’m praying that the Lord speaks to each one of you. I pray that you learn that it is okay to trust the Lord and that He shows you that he catches each and every time.